I’m on the phone with my sister one night and hear my
niece come into her room crying. Kara tells me to hold on and I hear the
following conversation:
Honey,
what’s wrong?
(Through tears) Mom, I just can’t handle living with
the devil anymore!
What
are you talking about? Why can’t you handle it?
(Through more tears) He makes me forget to brush my
teeth and brush my hair!
Well
honey, he’s not going anywhere, so remember that Jesus is greater than the
devil. And… you’ll have to figure out how to remember to do those things. Now
go get ready for bed.
Footsteps and muffled tears…
I still smile when I think of that conversation. If
only you could have heard the pitiful voice of my niece expressing her
frustration with the devil, you would still be chuckling too! (She’s a 9 year
old believer who feels like she’s seen it all!)
But as I think more about that conversation, I can’t
help but admit that Carolina admitted what I feel on so many days. Total
despair and frustration with the devil and how he has affected my world. And the reality that some days I, too, think… I just can’t take it anymore. Maybe it’s not over something as “childish” as
brushing my teeth… or maybe, just maybe it is.
As much as I’d like to pretend I only get overwhelmed when I’m making
decisions that affect hundreds of lives, the genuine awful truth is I get
overwhelmed. Sometimes over monumental tasks
and sometimes over miniscule tasks.
In those moments, I must become like a child… like my sweet genuine niece and go to
the Lord…. “Dad, I just can’t handle living with the devil anymore! I’m so
heartbroken, and he’s telling me to doubt everything!”
And my heavenly father soothes… “Holly, he’s not going anywhere for a while.
But remember, I am in you, and I am always greater than him.” *
Some of you might be asking, really? You remember
that Jesus lives in your heart and it makes it all better? Well, no, not always. But it could if I would let
it.
What do I mean by that? It’s like the difference
between when I was scared as a single woman versus being scared as a married woman.
When I “heard” something when I lived alone, there was nothing to alleviate the
fear. I just had to try to pretend I didn’t hear it and fall asleep before
anything else spooked me.
When I “hear” something as a married woman, I tell my
husband I heard something, and then fall sleep knowing there is someone there
to protect me.
My fear is gone because I have someone to protect
me.
If only I would apply that same truth to my spiritual
life.
On the darkest days, let’s start allowing the Father’s
presence to alleviate the fears and frustrations that often come from living life.
Let’s start realizing that on some days, overcoming
the devil might be brushing your teeth. Combing your hair. Getting dressed.
And
for that day, that is enough.
On other days, it might be setting slaves free.
Overcoming your addiction. Running for office. Teaching a Bible study.
And for
that day, that is enough.
But then one day God will say
“That is Enough.”
“That is Enough.”
And
we will live in a beautiful place for the rest of eternity.
With no devil.
No forgetting brushing of teeth and hair.
No frustrations. No pain. No cancer. No abuse. No bad days. No anxious nights.
No frustrations. No pain. No cancer. No abuse. No bad days. No anxious nights.
As C.S. Lewis put it,
"Joy is the serious business of heaven."
*1 John 4:4